Sunday, October 17, 2010

the beginning of a future end

i wanted to let everyone know about my idolization of the works of Andy Rooney. Over statement. But i do rather admire his satirical methods of writing. Oh, if i could just meet him! I feel that my life would receive the shock of inspiration and drive that currently resides in the clouds of a thrunderstorm.

How does any one person decide the most useful way possible to apply their talents? Does he simply have to try every way of life before chosing his path? I need direction. This is a critical point in the life of a teenager. Senior year, the start of the rest of your life. What to be? WHO to be? I am not blessed with the abilty of seeing myself the way i am, but at least i can recognize this shortcoming. That said, how am i to know what my calling is? Mother tells me that "I'll be good at whatever I choose to be." This is not the answer i seek. This is not the answer anyone seeks! People want a message to wash up in a glass bottle on the beach, containing their best options for success in life.

The constant changing of point of view in that paragraph nearly killed me to write. I have become the grammar police. Hey, maybe i should be an editor. [yes, i know that my blog is loaded with errors, it is my place and i can refuze to capitalize or missssspelll whatever i want.]

" The closing of a door can bring blessed privacy and comfort - the opening, terror. Conversely, the closing of a door can be a sad and final thing - the opening a wonderfully joyous moment. "
-Andy Rooney

Monday, October 4, 2010

Ovaltine>Chocolate Milk

School is getting better :]
or maybe my medicine started working.
whichever, i'm not complaining either way.
Oprah is having an episode on a two-legged dog.
This does not INSPIRE me, Oprah! In fact, i am now thoroughly saddened.
I am going to go sit in the sun and read Sense and Sensibility for the time being.
This is currently my life

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Theft

Not that I'm at work wasting resources and stealing internet from accross the street.
Because I'm not.

School makes blogging really difficult. School makes LIFE really difficult. Country music helps a bit. I'm not content with things as they are. I see no room for possible improvement, except if this customer would keep driving. OH MY GOSH! HE LEFT! Bottled jenie, if that was one of my three wishes, i will be pissed. second, i would like unlimited dollars. and third, i wish for 100 more wishes. sound familiar? as if everyone hasnt wished for that at least once.
there is a mosquito buzzing around my ankle. wait, do mosquitos buzz? Yup. unggghhhh. going home would be immaculate right now. maaammaaaa take me home!
i've come to the terms that i am not a people person, not a loner, and also not in between. i just dont care at all! which is alright, i dont care. [see that?]
i still want to write a book.
or maybe i should teach a class on how to write bolgs about nothing.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

elephants

are my real family.


that would be preferable sometimes

man im so out of it today, something is WRONG

lately, everything sucks and karma has been kicking my butt every second
i need to do my homework but i dont know how and my head hurts
im teaching myself to let things go, only problem is that myself doesnt have any experience to go by so i have no clue what to do
I GIVE UP
for real this time! i try too hard. oh well, it'll all be over in a year anyway
i want some cake

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Fail, but I'm Okay

...
Project F just FLOPPED
meaning it's done.
There is only so much you can do, ya know?
At least now I will be able to sleep well at night knowing that I did everything in my power to make this right and that nothing is my fault. That is really refreshing. actually, this whole this is sort of refreshing in the way that it makes me see how much I am capable of.

I have work in a few hours, that'll be the ultimate test. It's soooo hot outside I don't think there's much of a chance we won't be busy today. Oh well, maybe i'll get some tips. Or visitors!

Time to workout!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

SUCCESS

Project F hit major pay dirt today!
I'm so excitedddd
No, you cant know what it is
[sorry]

Im reallllyyyy bored.
Wow, that is a horrible way to start a blog.
NEW START:
oh no i just reminded myself that registration for school is this monday. ahhhh nuuuuu!
I went to the gym for two hours today woooooo, a friend gave me a free three day pass. I hope he can get me a longer one so i can mooch a little more.
UNNGH. some people i just cant stand to talk to. they're just insufferable know-it-alls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emphasis on the exclamation points.
Is it murder if you arent caught? justtt kidddingg
I feel like playing some more assassins creed, hhhmmmm
This blog is disappointing. whoops, speaking of disappointing, i spelled disappointing wrong.

yeah, so dairy queen has MINI BLIZZARDS.
http://dairyqueen.com/us-en/eats-and-treats/blizzard-of-the-month/
not that im a fatty or anything

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

homealone

i used to be OBSESSED with the home alone movies. Now, when i'm home alone, i hide in my room and pray that no one comes to kill me. speaking of which, i SWEAR i just heard the gate open. i'm frightened. maybe i should just creep back to bed and continue watching arrested development. BJ AND PARIS WILL PROTECT ME!

Yeah okay, I made more coffee. Thats when i blog the most. I wish i could not eat. Like just, stop eating.
I have to work tomorrow and its going to be hotter than the sun, which is bad. Also katrina and i are getting lunch [food] so thats something to look forward to. I need to work out some more. Insanity is collecting dust in my sisters room. Just the thought of those INSANE workouts makes me hungry. sigh, im hopeless. on the plus side, my hair feels very soft.

Project F is coming along nicely. I always win, usually. I've been hitting some speed bumps but today was good, I feel that significant progress was made. I might even take invasive action soon. mayyybeee. it all depends on how my self esteem is doing thursday.

School is going to start soon. I'm not ready. I always dread school starting but this time i am legitimately NOT READY.

STRESS STRESS STRESS

sometimes, i forget that other people have feelings. [that sounds worse than i meant for it to.] but karma will remind me.

annnndd back to arrested development and coffee